Haribol 🙏

Title is not always about what's inside always as like today it's my first post and I've no positivity to put here so just started with His Holy name. 

Actually I just paid my obeisance to Lord and nowhere ; everyone should Glorify Hari!

Though it's not the context but no matter what I want to express I always get drawn towards His name.

O' Lord! You're Glorious! This sinful soul just hopes to be a menial servant of Yours Priya-janas life after life!

Today I'm not laughing ! I'm not smiling though it's the day of eviction from all painful stressful anxieties 灬 I'm all lost (I'm not mine) may be from myself but not from Your mercy,, probably be that's why I'm alive still,, if they hear they'll tell please 🦩 don't say such things; what will happen to us without you,, have you ever thought!! But

 why should I How should I  what should I 

When even nobody is here with me to hear me 

I'm all alone, no human sound, only sounds of night and and sounds of machine called mike there in nearby Mandir probably that never stops and the spiritual vibration gives the soul energy to carry this body which is just starving to be soulless each moment. half an hour back when I come to know it was playing the hymns signifying how fateful a basil , bel leaf to sit on the Lord's mastāk (so how an unlucky being I'm? then when I was struggling to check that it was being played "tuma pari prabhu thau thau" remembering me the benevolence of my Lord under whose sarāna I'm! ....

Where are you my love ,, my loved ones,,, no peace inside: what can I deliver the world : only negativities

nobody is to pacify the scrambling soul,, is it that the pain of today will perish in short,,, all panic 

nobody to feel pity for,,, why should one too,, becoming sad for somebody else is not a gift to keep with,,,

Though it's the start I've no sweets, no stars to show you ,, she's in sleep,, all slept I'm all awake just playing puzzling in my world of misdeeds and misfortunes,,, 

I can't find it after repeated failures I poke into her phone tried in silence and finally able to know the score,,  I failed to get an admission miserably but the Lord grants a last chance to survive in a fitting way,,,, I wrote that day after serial procrastination when I come to know about it ,, today when the outcome is with me : mark of failure o one more attempt to go: I'm shayãring here; yes the fate prints of the souless limbs of a dinosaur like creature:: still striving, struggling to exist or exit at last,,, no idea

only His blessings, her prayers,, all impossible to possible,,, fateless are they who does not know You

Don't believe on You; so in this sense I'm the luckiest as I've You,,,,

◍reading!? someone is talking to u, Someone from up is seeing you! what more u need to survive dear!◍

the spiritual hymns continues......